Sunday, October 9, 2011
I'm not usually like this, but ever since this summer, I've been struggling to have good self esteem. I have dreams of singing, and my name being in lights. I don't care about the money I could earn, I care about being somebody and doing something I love. Everyone says I have a good voice, or a nice voice, but that's not good enough to get where I want to go. I have to be the best, and I know I'm not. I don't have the type of voice that's good for solos or leads. I have the type of voice that sounds better harmonizing and being in the background. And it breaks my heart. Every time I try to come out of my shell, or take a risk and try for a lead, my voice goes out, or I don't make it. I don't want to give up my passion, but I don't want to be in the background while everyone else lives their dreams. I don't know what to do anymore, and I feel so lost. I'm on the worship and praise band at my church, and I love singing for God, but I hate feeling like I'm not good enough, and I hate falling flat on my face. What am I supposed to do?