Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Why do I have to be so jealous of everything? From someone else having a good picture, to them nailing a song, and me falling flat on my face, I can't seem to get rid of this little monster! It's so aggravating, and it makes me frustrated with myself. Is it really so bad for someone else to be happy or successful without me getting mad about it? Why do I ALWAYS have this problem?! I don't want to be perfect, I just want to be rid of this jealousy crap. It ruins friendships, and/or puts a strain on them, and I don't want to be like this all the time. JEALOUSY SUCKS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! >:(
Saturday, September 17, 2011
My Grandma is back in the hospital, and it's really hard to see her laying in a hospital bed, when she's the strongest person I know. My Grandma has been my best friend from the start, and her being sick has made me kind of treasure every moment I have with her. My Grandpa was diagnosed with cancer a few weeks ago, and it's kind of scary to think that the two strongest, most influential people I've ever known are getting sick. I know God has a reason for everything, and I am really trying to trust in Him. I just have to keep my faith, and pray. And maybe the end result of this whole thing will be my parents becoming Christians...I don't know. I wish I did know what's going to happen. But God knows, and he's the solid rock I'll have to rely on now. And not just in this situation. Maybe God's trying to get me to quit relying on people and friends so much and on Him. But I don't know. Please keep Steve and Beverly Bailey in your prayers. And Grandma and Grandpa, I love you guys...so much. <3
Tuesday, September 13, 2011
Ever have those bad days? Where everything seems to go wrong? Well, I guess everything didn't go wrong today. But it kind of felt like it. My really awesome phone screen broke, and it will cost about $120 to fix. I didn't get something that I worked really hard for and I really wanted, and my back is killing me today. But, on the bright side, I did raise my Human Body Systems grade from a D to...some other grade higher then a D. I feel like snapping at everyone today...so I'm just going to try and...chill for the rest of the night and try (try being the key word) to look at some positive stuff in things. =) The glass is half full! I think.