Sophomore Year :) :( >:( :D ;) :|

Ahh...this school year has been...pretty rediculous. In a good way. I've made a lot of mistakes, and had a lot of fun. I've:

-laughed
-cried
-stayed up for 36 hours straight
-skipped class
-hung out with the wrong people
-hung out with the right people
-been stood up
-learned how to play piano (I'm still learning)
-made new friends
-lost some old ones
-been pushed into a locker
-had a panic attack
-auditioned for America's Got Talent
-thrown up during a horror movie
-fallen asleep during class
-tried guacomole
-gotten in a fight
-almost broken character in the middle of a show
-told someone that I loved them
-gotten a sunburn
-sang in front of my family
-almost set the house on fire
-gotten out of the habit of using text shorthand
-been pissed off
-kissed someone on a dare
-had my heart broken
-done something stupid
-sang in front of a large audience...by myself...and almost had a heart attack
-strayed away from God
-come running back to Him
-gotten a tan :)

Yeah...and these are only a few of the things I've done. I changed my mind...this year has been great. And a fantastic learning experience.

That Little Green Monster

Sorry, I haven't written in awhile. I'll make sure I'm more regular about it...I promise :)


Jealousy is proably the most destructive forces I've ever witnessed. It tears apart friendships, relationships, and other such things. I've definitly had my share of jealousy. More then my share, actually. I had a big wake up call recently though. I got in a fight with someone, and the cause of it was my jealousy. After this person and I made up, I realized how insanely STUPID my jealousy was. For some reason, I just seem to have this problem being...myself. "I'm not a great singer, she's better then I am." "I'm not as pretty as she is." "Her hair is straighter then mine." "She's a way better actress then I am." That was my jealousy. Now, it's definitly toned down. So today, I'm going to try and to be the least jealous person I can be. I'll be happy with my talents, and I'll admire others in a positive way. Wish me luck :)

Je suis désolé

"Never shall I forget the days I spent with you. Continue to be my friend, as you will always find me yours." -Ludwig van Beethoven

People make mistakes. People say stupid things. And sometimes, when you mess up, you can't fix it. And I've been doing my share of that lately. I recently got in a fight with a very, very good friend of mine. I was having a bad day, and one little comment turned into a friendship ending. Honestly, it was my fault. Completely, 100%. This person doesn't want to be my friend anymore, but I pray that they will. I know I hurt their feelings, and I am more sorry then they will ever know. I miss them dearly, and I just have to hope that they will turn around.

Even if this person is never my friend again, I know I learned a huge lesson from all of this. Mistakes are people's way of learning, and in the end, they make you a better person. This will make me value my other friendships way more than I have in the past, and I'll make sure I watch what I say, and that if I'm having a bad day, I compose myself.

And to the person I'm fighting with, if they should happen to read this, I love you, and I miss you. I know I made a mistake. I am so sorry.

It's The Inside That Counts

The majority of teenager girls suffer from some sort of self esteem problem. Girls and women alike had higher self esteem years ago, before the internet came around. But self esteem has always been an issue for women. Many people seem to think that if our body isn't a size 3 or smaller, we're plus size, fat, obese, overweight, unloveable, and unwanted. The average American woman is a size 10, so why do we believe that when we are in fact normal, we're not? This leads to eating disorders, such as anorexia, bulimia, and complusive eating. Everyone is completely beautiful and lovely in their own way. Everyone has diffrent features; some people have flawless skin, or beautiful eyes, or a lovely smile. But you know what really matters? Your heart. Large, small, tall, or short, in the end, your personality is the only thing that will matter.

I would love to hear your thoughts on this, so please, comment away :)

Love is love.

I'm sure you're wondering what "a l'oeuvre, on connait l'ouvrier" means. It's a French proverb. It means, a carpenter is known by his chips. Only cool people post stuff in French :)

I guess everyone is doing this blog thing, and it seems like a good place to put down some of the thoughts that I constantly ponder in my head. 

What I'm thinking about right now is love. People say "I love you" pretty much daily, but I think it's a word that teenagers misuse constantly. I mean seriously. I have friends who will date someone, and after two days they say their in love with them. And I have friends who will cheat constantly on their girlfriends/boyfriends and still say they love them. You don't fall in love with someone after a few days of dating. I've never been completely in love with someone. I will be, someday, but not now. I have friends that I love, but in a friend type of way. It just burns me up how quickly teenagers are to say "I love you," when they probably don't even know what true love is.

Love is love. Period. You can't sort of love someone. You either do or you don't. And I doubt that these teenagers are seriously in love.

This is it for now...feel free to post your thoughts.